Is this how my life is gonna be? Listening to depressed/depressing music and sitting around online? Am I going to spend the rest of my life sitting in front of a laptop? Am I ever going to make a real friend who doesn't give a shit about what everyone else thinks about me? Will I ever stop thinking about my own happiness and actually be happy? Will I ever stop sacrificing myself for others and just be a normal human being? When will I stop being such a loser? When am I gonna BE SOMEBODY? When am I gonna GO SOMEWHERE? I've been "woken up", and "paying attention" for a while, and I'm tired of being stupid. I need direction in my life. I need good people, good friends, and I'll try and bring the good food. I need to find something that will actually spark my interest. I need to find that thing that everyone else seems to already have. I need inspiration, I need focus. I need a woman. I'm sick of girls. Guess I'll talk later when I'm not in 203943820398 tons of pain, emotional, physical, and everything in between.